Weight

A friend of mine has been doing the Slim in 6 program and I have to say... she looks amazing! I dug found mine in the closet this morning. I did the Start It Up! section and thought I was going to die. Wow! I had to stop twice and catch my breath. I didn't even finish the last 8 minutes. I just couldn't... I couldn't feel my legs and felt like I was going to fall. That is SOOO freakin' sad and I'm embarrassed to admit that but... there it is. I did before pictures (some of which I'm sure will never see the light of day) and did measurements. When I went to calculate my body fat, it hit me... this is crazy! I'm too young to look like this. I've never had any concern (by me or my doctor) about blood pressure or cholesterol, etc... even when I was pregnant. Somehow, with the exception of my weight, I've managed to stay within healthy levels. I think I've been lucky up to this point, considering my body fat is in the dangerous level - 41%. It is time for a change. I've GOT to stop making excuses and do something before other things start becoming dangerous and life changing. This is what I put on my Beachbody profile:

"I'm the stereo-typical fat person. I'm lazy and honest enough to admit it. I hate working out and am good at coming up with excuses. I work 2nd shift and so I joined a 24-hour gym last year, thinking that I wouldn't have an excuse. Yeah, right! After an 11 or 12-hour shift, I'd talk myself into driving home and saying, "I'll work out tomorrow." Three weeks later, I still hadn't hit the gym. I gained a lot of weight trying to get pregnant and trying to "control" my endometriosis. I endured surgeries and medications including 6 months on a Lupron injections, in which I gained almost 60lbs. I struggled with infertility for almost 5 years before getting pregnant with my son. I gained about 35lbs with him bringing my grand total to almost 250lbs at delivery. (My heaviest weight.) He just turned 4 and I've been able to get down to the 190's. I was down to 180.5 before finding out I was pregnant with my second son. I was in the midst of scheduling a hysterectomy because we had decided not to return to our RE (fertility specialist). Needless to say, it was a shock to learn we had beaten the odds and gotten pregnant on our own. I had horrible nausea with him and actually lost a few pounds during the pregnancy. Sadly, we experienced a second trimester loss... losing him two days shy of 17 weeks. (Three weeks before he would have been "classified" as a stillbirth.) I was induced and delivered him 12 hours later. As I type this, it has been almost a year since he was born and I've grieved and eaten myself back to the mid 190's. A friend recently started the Slim in 6 program and looks AMAZING! She has given me the hope and strength to try again and hopefully succeed in losing the weight. I did the Start It Up section this morning and thought I was going to die. I had to stop twice and catch my breath. I couldn't even finish the last 8 minutes because I could't feel my legs and felt like I was going to fall because my legs were so weak. That is SOOO sad and I'm embarrassed to admit it but... there it is."

I'm going to start a page just for my weight loss and hope and pray that I am able to find the motivation and dedication to stick with it. :-)