Spoken Word Blog Round-Up (Year Two)

Angie, over at Still Life with Circles, is starting up the 2nd Spoken Word Blog Round-Up. I participated in this last year and it was an amazing experience. I was still very early into my loss but I somehow found the courage to post and was welcomed into the community with love, acceptance and support. I believe it was a big turning point in my healing... just getting the words and thoughts out into the open and having someone tell me that I wasn't alone. If you are interested in participating or just want to follow along, here's the link: http://stilllifewithcircles.blogspot.com/2012/10/spoken-word-blog-round-up-two.html (Here is the link from last year: http://stilllifewithcircles.blogspot.com/2011/10/spoken-word-blog-round-up.html)

Sadness

I keep wondering when it won't bother me to hear Cameron ask when we'll be able to have a new baby. He's asked lots of times so you would think it wouldn't hit me like it does. However, it always comes out of nowhere. It breaks my heart to hear the words and see the sad look on his face when I tell him that it isn't up to us; that only God can decide if we get to have another baby. I feel like I'm letting him down every time I say it. :-(